Time-Lapse

My mind is flying faster then this car can crash Romance is breaking my heart in two Never mind the stain on the wall that seems To change faster then the spite Twisting its self into something It never wanted to be Dropping ever so slowly onto the floor it’s Spores seem to love me more Claiming each room as it passes by The spores claim my mind Eating it slowly away And just as slowly, I’m losing myself As my car screams though the road I forget what it was, that kept me here As the car compresses So do I, into a simpler, kinder life

Not another sad poem about lost love Misplaced hope, trust Not another longing to find the one Just no more. "I will fight no more I will fight no more forever" Words of a man Of a soul not unlike my own Lost in a world that no longer makes sense Sitting on cold cement Watching the cars go hither and thither Like my thoughts Winding around the bend Sleep-ish-ly waiting for the destination Steering towards the future And life will be better when I get theres So we plug on Never stopping never waiting For that second That moment Let it pass on by The cars zoom by my parking lot I just let them go I just sit and speculate

I just wasn't I wasn't going to say anything Class should have ended five Minutes ago Looking at my watch, 1:35 pm If I asked That maybe she would say yes I will sit content I wont Thinking that today I would ask her I draw scribbles on my paper In my mind I have asked her out a thousand times Never got a response My break from reality A simple crush a distraction Who brings knitting needles to class anyways? Watching her knitting needles dance in there own austerity Every word she says makes me want to know her even more Questioning the teachers viewpoints Hearing her voice stating her opinions Sitting as close as I can F

Last year I found myself             Wondering the lamp lit streets              I ran into the girl Who lit a fire in my mind Fire that burns so cold             I can feel it eating at my skin             A nameless pain that numbs away At this concept that connects her to me And it burns so cold             Remembering that it's not what I feel             It was hers not mine A heart that beats and heats a fire that numbs The posters on the wall             Men that she claims mean nothing             They just sit and tell a truth That I could only borrow her heart It would never be wholly mine              So I left th

Jane offers no sympathy To the dust, the dirt The boxes that fill the attic To the shadows that dart through Cut by the light The light that gleamed off the mirror Jane sat in thought Her long brown hair covered her face Covered her blue eyes Dust covered the floor but she never seems to mind I stand next to the old tattered window Its pane chipping from old memories Of a harder life My eyes are not on the window They are fixed On the moon Shadowed by the earth Never showing its full worth   Yet can still light our night I hear Jane's footsteps behind me coming closer I feel her arm around me I never told her that

Know what sucks Is that I don't care About rainbows The things that she Thinks are beautiful To her "The miracle of life." Me, I'm slamming my head Against the pavement Until my warmth pours out The fact is I don't care About rainbows, small churches, the countryside It kills me that I don't Because she does I can see it in her eyes Her excitement That's why I came Not to see some rainbow But to see her Her excitement It's like taking that gasp of air After almost drowning I inhale her excitement No wait I gasp for it

I see the light refection off her eyes Making them seem afire As the light wakes her from somewhere In her dreams Her smile, whiter then the winter snow Could ever hope for   At that moment, I loved her again Even if she forget to close the blinds Like she forgot me last night She just wanted yogurt with Granola Perhaps strawberry I never told her that I almost left last night After taking gin and tonic out for a date I knew she was in there somewhere But between the words and the anger I seemed to lose her. I forgot About mornings Yogurt Some people say A smile is worth a thousand frowns, Bullshit A smile is worth n